I;m finally single after 2 and a half years. I spent 1 and a half years wanting to leave you and wondering what it would be like to be with someone else. There always seemed to be a new and better guy than you. And it always seemed that you were holding me back from being happy. So now that I finally got the guts to end us, why is it that I feel so lonely and why is it that all of a sudden I can’t find anyone. All this time I thought that by leaving you I would be happier, that you were the problem. But why does it now feel like i’m the problem? I feel like shit for hurting you and for lying to you, but now all I want more than anything is to find a guy. To take you off my mind and to finally feel.. free. But I can’t. And the guy I was talking to, the guy I thought I could have if I left you, doesn’t even care about me.  Life is oh so difficult.

I guess it’s true, you never really know what you have till it’s gone.

(Source: dearstrangerxx)